I found her with untied tap shoes on her feet and eyes red from crying.
We zipped into the ballet studio, one mom and three girls (plus one baby boy) on a mission.
Three daughters in four back-to-back and sometimes overlapping dance classes during observation week. This means instead of huddling in my minivan or zooming around town doing errands in between classes, I sat in the corner of class taking pictures.
We all piled into my youngest daughter’s class except for my tap-dancing girl who left to change into her tap-tap-tappy shoes. I watched the clock carefully and slipped out just in time to check on her before her tap class began.
She wiped her eyes and explained, “I couldn’t get the ribbons on my shoes tied and I didn’t have anyone to help me….”
I tie the ribbons swiftly and then smooth down her hair with my hand. Then I say it so she knows it’s not just about shoes anymore:
You didn’t trust me to come help you. I knew you’d need help and I came just in time.
She’d been frantic and upset and all along I had a plan for her rescue and I was right on time, not a second too late.
So, all her fretting had been unnecessary drama.
And when is fretting not?
I started this year with intentionality: 12 months of pursuing the presence of Christ in the middle of the noise, mess, and busyness of life. Today, I finish January’s journey, learning to be still and know that He is God.
For months, I dreaded this start to the year, knowing it would be the busiest and craziest of our busy and crazy schedule. I feared the stress—-as in, tearful eyes, breathless suffocation just thinking about it.
But here we are. We made it. God is gracious. When I felt that familiar strangulation of fear, I heard that still and small reminder: Don’t worry about that. Just think about today.
So I did.
And, as much as I whine perhaps about winter, the overload of snow days has given me unexpected rest when we needed it most.
God planned the perfect rescue at the perfect moment for me all along, but I had been fretting and worrying.
Because I didn’t trust Him.
So often, we read that familiar Psalm—-BE STILL and know—and we focus on the stillness (Psalm 46:10).
Yes, stop with the flustered activity, the desperate attempts to fix things on our own, the frantic search for help from everyone except the only One who can truly save….
“Cease striving” it says in the NASB.
So, for a moment we pause.
Here’s what I’ve learned this month, though—“Being still” is not enough. It simply tells me what not to do.
I can’t forget that after I’ve ceased that striving and calmed my heart, God tells me what I should be doing in the stillness:
Know Him, Know He is God, Know that He’s got this under control and I can rest in the knowing that He cares for me.
Ann Voskamp reminds me of this….to remember He is I AM. His very name is the reminder of His Presence here in this present moment.
Like Moses, I’ve asked in the boldest of ways that God will show me His Glory this year. And, like Moses, I’ve told God that I don’t want to move from this place until His presence will go with me.
So, like Moses standing there on a holy mountain before a Holy God, I pray this also:
If you are pleased with me, teach me your ways so I may know you and continue to find favor with you (Exodus 33:13).
Because, God, in order to dwell in Your presence day after hectic day, I must be still and know You more, know You as I AM, know You as God present with me.
To read more about this 12-month journey of pursuing the presence of Christ, you can follow the links below! Won’t you join me next month as I focus on Praying Simply?
- Finding Room to Breathe: A 12-Month Pursuit of the Presence of Christ
- Why I’m Serving Up Spaghetti and Brownies for 3 Kings Day
- What My 3-Month-Old is Teaching His Mama
- Made it to the Bus with 30 Seconds to Spare
- How Pioneer Women Were Superheroes and Why I’m Baking Bread
Heather King is a wife, mom, Bible Study teacher, writer and worship leader. Most importantly, she is a Christ follower with a desire to help others apply the Bible to everyday life with all its mess, noise, and busyness. Her book, Ask Me Anything, Lord: Opening Our Hearts to God’s Questions, is available now! To read more devotionals by Heather King, click here.
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