I drafted the letter carefully.
Nope, that’s not the word.
I drafted the letter meticulously, cautiously, prayerfully, thoughtfully, and s-l-o-w-l-y. I read it over in my head at least 20 times. It took me about an hour to type out two paragraphs on my computer and I drank a whole cup of tea in the process.
Then I walked away. Than I came back and read it again. I changed some things. Then I walked away. Then I impulsively printed it up and signed my name, slipped it into an envelope, and addressed it.
Then I placed it in my dayplanner instead of the mailbox and carried it around for a while.
It was a letter to the principal of my daughter’s new school. I wrote it last August and finally threw it away last September.
To say that I was stressed and worried over my daughter’s first year in the public school would be an award-winning understatement. I asked every mom I knew with kids at that school who they thought should be my daughter’s first grade teacher.
In fact, I wasn’t really just thinking about first grade. I was thinking about the power of this one teacher to encourage or destroy a love for learning FOR LIFE. She could ruin my daughter’s entire educational future, career path, and self-esteem or she could positively influence my girl in ways that led to life-time motivation and success.
So, I explained in my letter to the principal how special my daughter was and how smart and how sensitive and how based on this teacher’s reputation in the community, I thought she would be the best fit to guide my daughter in her first grade year.
I kept trying to send the letter, really and truly. But then I’d get that same nagging feeling—Did I trust God to take care of my girl or not? Who did I really think was in charge of her development, character and future? Me? A principal?
It was terrible to feel powerless over a decision of such magnitude. I hate when the future of me or my family seems to depend on the choices of someone else.
And it so often seems that way, doesn’t it? How much of your life seems to rest in the hands of others?
The human resources lady who decides whether to offer you the job.
The boss who determines whether you get a raise or promotion.
The lawyer who decides how to argue your case.
The judge who decides how much time you spend with your kids and how much time your ex does.
The church leadership who decide how you minister.
The committee that accepts or rejects your idea.
The loan officer who determines if your credit is good enough.
And so it goes. Everyone making decisions everyday about our own personal life, and not arbitrary meaningless decisions either. Big decisions that have real impact.
I finally decided to trust that if God wanted my daughter in a particular classroom, He could make that happen. He could even direct the decisions of the principal.
So, we arrived at Open House at the end of August, all of us a little jittery and overwhelmed. Stepping up to the table for people with last names starting with A through K, we waited to hear the big news. Who was going to be the magical first grade teacher who would hold my daughter’s future in her hands?
The very teacher I wanted. There was never any need to write that letter. God had already made the decision for me and directed the path of those in charge.
Now that the school year is ending, I’ve already begun the inevitable fretting over next year’s teacher. This never gets easy, does it? The lesson that God is in control is a perpetual one.
David asked a tough question in the Psalms:
The Lord is on my side; I will not fear.
What can man do to me? (Psalm 118:6 ESV).
What can man do to me? I’ll tell you what! Fire me. Pick the wrong teacher for my kids. Pass judgment against me in a courtroom. Put me on a bad work schedule. Make my life miserable. Cut off my funding. Shut down my ministry. Slice my paycheck.
It may seem that way at times, but David was right–there’s no need to fear. Solomon explained why when he wrote that:
The king’s heart is a stream of water in the hand of the Lord;
he turns it wherever he will (Proverbs 21:1).
God can direct the heart of a king if He chooses and set the course of a principal and open the eyes of a judge.
Because He alone is God. No one else is or should be lord over our lives or god over our circumstances. Scripture admonishes us to:
“know therefore today, and lay it to your heart, that the Lord is God in heaven above and on the earth beneath; there is no other” (Psalm 118:6 ESV).
He is God. There is no other. Your life isn’t in the hands of anyone but Him and while life isn’t always easy or perfect, we can trust that He’s in control and He’ll care for us and guide us at all times.
Heather King is a wife, mom, Bible Study teacher, writer for www.myfrienddebbie.com and worship leader. Most importantly, she is a Christ follower with a desire to help others apply the Bible to everyday life with all its mess, noise, and busyness. To read more devotionals by Heather King, click here.
Copyright © 2012 Heather King