We have a nighttime wanderer at our house, a little traveler who visits others while they sleep.
My son has always slept in his own room and in his own bed, but after we moved into a new house something shifted in him. He doesn’t want to be alone at night.
And he absolutely, positively does NOT want to sleep in his own bed in his own room.
We’ve set up a little futon for him as a consolation. At first, he insisted that his “little bed” (as he calls it) remain in the upstairs hallway. That was close enough to family traffic to keep his little heart happy.
I’ve been slowly trying to move him into his room, though, because school starting means his sisters are up and moving and loud really early in the morning. He’d sleep better (and longer!) in his own bedroom.
So, I’ve managed to get his “little bed” into his bedroom, but he wants it as close to the door as possible.
Then, after we’ve all snoozed for a few hours, he drags his blanket behind him and finds another place to sleep.
He climbs into bed with a sister. He curls up and falls back to sleep under their bedroom window. He tucks himself in on a trundle bed.
We tell him each night that he needs to sleep in his own bed and he nods in agreement, but around 3 or 4 a.m. I suppose his heart’s desire overcomes all that. In the morning, we find out whose room he decided to share for the night.
My girls never really experienced that need. All three of them shared a room until a few months ago so when they were preschoolers, they didn’t have to sleep by themselves.
Being alone, after all, is hard.
I have sympathy for my little guy. He loves his family. He knows he feels more secure if he is near someone else. So, he pursues that with determination, relentlessly returning night after night to the same pattern, dragging his Star Wars blanket behind him.
Maybe we all need that assurance once in a while, that we’re not alone, that we’re safe, that we’re loved, especially in the dark times.
And Scripture does that for us. The Psalmist gives us this beautiful reminder:
If I say, “Surely the darkness shall cover me,
and the light about me be night,”
even the darkness is not dark to you;
the night is bright as the day,
for darkness is as light with you (Psalm 139:11-12 ESV).
Night and day are the same to our God. Darkness, light: Makes no difference. Even the darkness is not dark to Him.
That means that even in our loneliest, scariest, darkest, most anxious moments, whether we’re lying in our beds or standing in our kitchens or driving in our cars or sitting at a desk, God brings the Light of His Presence right where we are.
No darkness is too dark for Him to cut through.
Even if we feel forgotten, unloved, overlooked, or abandoned, we’re promised that God doesn’t ever fall asleep on the job. Psalm 121 says:
He will not let your foot be moved;
he who keeps you will not slumber.
4 Behold, he who keeps Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.
He never turns His head away or gets distracted. He’s not so busy solving the crises of the world to hear us and see us when we call to Him.
So, call to Him.
In his devotional, Morning and Evening, Charles Spurgeon wrote:
You may fear that the Lord has passed you by, but it is not so: he who counts the stars, and calls them by their names, is in no danger of forgetting his own children. He knows your case as thoroughly as if you were the only creature he ever made, or the only saint he ever loved. Approach him and be at peace.
In the night, in the times you can’t see, in the places where you feel lonely, in the moments when you’re so exhausted and overwhelmed that you just feel hopelessly lost, call to Him.
Drag your blanket behind you if you need to, and seek Him out. It’s His very presence that you need to be your safe place, your refuge and hiding place, the security you need to help you sleep in peace and rest without fear.
Here’s the good news: He is closer than you may think or feel.
Angela Thomas wrote:
When you are hurting, your head says that God is far away, but Jesus says, in fact, that God is closer than ever (A Beautiful Offering)
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So fitting to me in this time in my life – thank you. God is a loving God, thank you God for loving us all.
I’m so thankful for His love!