“I’ll do that when I’m seven.”
“Or maybe when I’m ten.”
That’s the standard reply my five-year-old gives me.
Would you like to take ballet again in the fall?
Do you think you would want to try this?
It’s never “yes” or “now” or even “soon.”
She has this timeline of plans, this plotted course, and she’s not really in a hurry to jam-pack activity into this very moment right here. Seven is soon enough. Ten is fine. Why try to do everything when you’re five?
Part of me marvels at the wisdom.
What is it about me that tries to cram what feels like a life-time of living into every single day?
Something about me that cannot…..can….not…..leave the dirty dishes in the sink for the next morning.
I’m the anti-Scarlett O’Hara. None of this, “I’ll think about that tomorrow” nonsense. Today. Today. It has to be today.
I have to slip into bed every night, to-do list cleared out, dishes clean, laundry put away, nothing holding over for the next morning.
But my tiny girl lives out today and is content to let some things linger until tomorrow, or next year, or five years from now.
Today, she’ll do this. And then one day she’ll do that. Simple as that.
Part of me, though, worries: What if I leave that for another day and that other day never comes? Our lives are short. Our future uncertain. Our tomorrow is never guaranteed.
And if you leave too much left undone today, it just spills over on top of tomorrow and then the next day until it’s a 10-car pile-up of trauma and disaster.
I need to handle this and do this now, now, now!
In Lazarus Awakening, Joanna Weaver writes:
“Someone once asked, ‘Why do we tend to live like eternity lasts eighty years, but this life lasts forever?”
We are a mixed-up bunch: Our priorities, our timetables, all jumbled and topsy-turvy.
We think what we’re doing right now, this moment, this day, this season, this year, this project, this commitment, this ministry…is the end-all be-all.
It’s what keeps us up at night and what forces us out of bed in the mornings.
And yet, as Christians, the moment we choose for Christ to be our personal Savior, eternity with God begins.
It doesn’t start the day we die here and walk through heaven’s gates.
It begins that moment we bow our heads and our lives to His Lordship.
This very issue that leaves me sleepless and fretting or over-stuffing each day is a tiny speck in the grand timeline of eternity with Jesus.
And all those five-year-plans and ten-year-plans and budgets and agendas, hardly matter in the big picture of forever.
Our hearts long for this. Truly.
God has created us for an eternal longing, a hope for something more:
He has also set eternity in the human heart (Ecclesiastes 3:11 b NIV).
We struggle to keep it all in balance and yet God breathes that refreshing breath into us, the reminder that THIS is not all there is.
The way the days sometimes stretch out in endless frustration or rushing or stress…that’s not forever. That’s nothing more than a blip on the radar screen of the eternal.
Or the way one trial, a season of loss or pain or want, overtakes our life, and yet it’s here for this moment, and then it will be gone.
I read the reminder in Experiencing God:
God did not create you for time; He created you for eternity. Time- your lifetime on earth- provides the opportunity for you to become acquainted with Him. It provides occasions for Him to develop your character into His likeness. Then eternity will hold its fullest dimensions for you.
Every moment feels a little more sacred.
Not more rushed.
Not more stressed.
Not more important even.
But holy.
Because the life we’re living in the here and now is just part of that eternity with Jesus. We can love Him, know Him and worship Him, spend each day in His presence, and that forever-life shifts our perspective.
This situation. The to-do list. The appointments. The schedule. The annoyance. The personal hurt. The betrayal.
Those are so temporary.
What matters most is yielding to Him. It is listening to His Spirit. It’s sharing a laugh with God or marveling over the beauty of His creation. It’s rejoicing over the salvation of another. It is dumping the sin out of the trash-bin in my heart. It is allowing God to construct peace or patience or joy in my life.
What matters? What doesn’t? It’s all a little clearer in the light of heaven.
Heather King is a wife, mom, Bible Study teacher, writer and worship leader. Most importantly, she is a Christ follower with a desire to help others apply the Bible to everyday life with all its mess, noise, and busyness. Her book, Ask Me Anything, Lord: Opening Our Hearts to God’s Questions, is available now! To read more devotionals by Heather King, click here.
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