We have this long-standing family rule. My husband tells my daughters every year at the pumpkin patch before we scramble onto the tractor for the hayride out to the fields:
“You have to pick a pumpkin you can carry….yourself.…as in Mom and Dad aren’t carrying your pumpkin for you.”
They nod their little blond heads in understanding, but when my daughters hop off the back of that hay-covered wagon, their eyes scan the fields for the site of the perfect pumpkin.
And perfect typically means more than just deep orange (not green) and no rot (if they could find one without dirt on it, that’s a bonus).
Perfect usually means “big,” too.
Sometimes, like this year, one unique child will search for half an hour in that field only to pick the tiniest of all miniature orange pumpkins.
Inevitably, though, another child combines rolling, scooting, dragging, and bent-knee carrying complete with huffing, puffing, grunting and groaning to transfer her chosen pumpkin onto the tractor.
Or they’ll blink large, beautiful blue eyes in my direction and ask, “Mommy, can you help me carry this?,” hoping that somehow Mom missed hearing Dad’s speech this year.
Bigger is better. That’s what they think sometimes.
I need more, more than I can truly carry, more than enough, more than can fit, more than is comfortable…..
Perhaps it’s time to amend the rule because “what you can carry” seems like a dare to choose the largest pumpkin they can maneuver out of the field and onto the tractor.
I take this dare at times, too.
Because I feel needy at times, that’s why.
In need of energy, of supply, of vision, of joy, of inspiration, of affection, of deliverance, of encouragement, of peace….and yes, of even more and more than that.
Scripture promises us this—The Lord is our Chelqi—-our Portion. It’s one of His names, part of His character, the implicit promise dependent not on what He does or has done, but on who He is at the very core of His being.
That’s what it says in Lamentations 3:24:
“The Lord is my portion,” says my soul,
“Therefore I have hope in Him” (NASB)
and Psalm 73:26:
My flesh and my heart may fail,
But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever (NASB)
and again in Psalm 16:5:
The Lord is the portion of my inheritance and my cup;
You support my lot (NASB).
He is our Portion. He is Enough. He is exactly what we need, how much we need, at the exact moment we need Him.
We needn’t try to fill our arms with more than we can carry, fearful that He’ll give us what we need today, but not tomorrow.
In the wilderness outside of Egypt, God rained down supernatural manna for the Israelites six days a week, enough for each day with extra to set aside for the Sabbath once a week. And He told them this: Gather enough for today.
Just for today. Trust me for tomorrow. I’ll provide again.
Some of them tried to stockpile and store, thinking their own personal planning and feelings of security trumped God’s instruction.
But He meant it…daily bread. This much, and no more, is perfect. Trying to live off yesterday’s harvest leaves us with rotten manna, worm-filled bread, starvation for sure.
So, tomorrow and every single day we return for fresh filling and fresh provision, a perpetual looking to the Lord our Portion for all that we need.
And He is ALL we need. We trust that He isn’t stingy or absent or moody and inclined to provide one day, but not the next.
We don’t gorge ourselves in the fields of life, choosing other methods of filling our void and our emptiness, lumbering back to the tractor with our arms filled with everything that looks so perfect, but never fully satisfies.
He is enough. His provision is perfect in our seasons of fatigue and sorrow and desperate need .
Charles Spurgeon said it this way:
It is not “The Lord is partly my portion,”nor “The Lord is in my portion”; but he himself makes up the sum total of my soul’s inheritance. Within the circumference of that circle lies all that we possess or desire. The Lord is my portion. Not his grace merely, nor his love, nor his covenant, but Jehovah himself.”
Oh yes, sometimes I think what I need is rest. I need peace, Lord bring me peace. God, give me joy. Father, provide for this need.
But it’s not that He gives me a portion; He is my portion.
It is God Himself that I need, all that I need, everything that I need, and He is enough for me.
Originally posted September 27, 2013
Heather King is a wife, mom, Bible Study teacher, writer and worship leader. Most importantly, she is a Christ follower with a desire to help others apply the Bible to everyday life with all its mess, noise, and busyness. Her upcoming book, Ask Me Anything, Lord: Opening Our Hearts to God’s Questions, will be released in the Fall of 2013! To read more devotionals by Heather King, click here.
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