Originally published as: The Reluctant Blogger
I have been putting this off for such a long time and now that I’m here, blogging away, it is almost as if I have stage fright. That’s surprising because I’m generally more comfortable talking to a group of people from a stage than I am chatting with someone one-on-one. I’m envisioning Winnie the Pooh calling out, “Hellllllllo. Is anybody there?” And hearing crickets.
But then I realize that whether someone is there or not is irrelevant. I’m blogging now because I’m being obedient to a burden God placed on my heart, to write and share with others my devotional journey with Him. My goal here isn’t really to write about me at all–not my daily activities or deepest dreams. Not my beautiful kids or wonderful husband. I’m not in the middle of any life adventure that I want to share with the world.
This is essentially about what happens when an insanely busy woman takes the time to meet with God at the kitchen table.
And you know what happens when I sit down with my Bible and my journal and my cup of tea . . .
It used to confuse me on exercise videos when you’re in the middle of your 20 lunges or 15 leglifts and the instructor says, “Don’t forget to breathe.” I’d think, “Well, yeah. Of course I’m breathing.”
But, usually when the exercise lady tells me to breathe and I’m resenting her perky condescension, I realize I’m really not breathing in and out. I’m kind of gasping for air and holding it in.
My daily life isn’t much different. When I answer the phone, people ask me all the time, “Have you been running or something? You sound out of breath.” And I realize, I haven’t been running; I just haven’t been breathing. The phone usually rings when I’m making dinner and racing around the house cleaning and supervising homework and breaking up fights and sending emails and finishing work. I’m juggling everything and keeping every ball in the air, but the one thing I’m forgetting to do is to just breathe.
So, most days I’m really too busy to enjoy the luxury of a quiet time. I’m certainly too busy to put those thoughts together into a blog. In fact, my lack of time has been one of my biggest excuses for not blogging.
I don’t have the time, but I make the time. Because without my kitchen table moments with God, I’d die. I’d slowly suffocate from my lack of breath.
So, in the middle of this “discussion” with God over whether or not I should even write this blog, I went to a women’s conference at a local church and they chose as their theme verse: “He’s solid rock under my feet,
breathing room for my soul” Psalm 62:1-2 (MSG).
It made me think that maybe it’s not just me who needs the reminder to breathe in and out. If anyone reads this and realizes you’ve been holding your breath, let me encourage you—”Don’t forget to breathe!” And, that’s essentially what this blog is about—me taking time to breathe and reminding you to do the same.
This is an excerpt from a poem they tucked into our bag at the conference:
Breathing Out and Breathing In
by: A.B. Simpson
Jesus, breathe Thy spirit in me.
Teach me how to breathe Thee in,
Help me pour into Thy bosom
All my life of self and sin.
I am breathing out my own life
That I may be filled with Thine;
Letting go my strength and weakness,
Breathing in Thy life divine.
Heather King is a wife, mom, Bible Study teacher, writer and worship leader. Most importantly, she is a Christ follower with a desire to help others apply the Bible to everyday life with all its mess, noise, and busyness. Her upcoming book, Ask Me Anything, Lord: Opening Our Hearts to God’s Questions, will be released in the Fall of 2013! To read more devotionals by Heather King, click here.
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