Look to the LORD and his strength; seek his face always.
Psalm 105:4, NIV
A few weeks ago, I waited in the line of moms and dads who were picking up their children from our church nursery. I could see inside the room where my daughter was playing, but she couldn’t yet see me. As the parents before me went into the room, my baby started craning her neck to see if she could find me in the crowd. She looked up as each new adult entered the room and kept searching every face to see if it was mine.
Then she saw me. I watched her face change from searching . . . searching . . . searching . . . to pure joy at finding Mom!! She beamed. She ran to me. She practically knocked me over with her embrace.
Really, there are few moments as a mom more precious than seeing a little person so excited just to see your face. To know that you are so very loved by someone sweet and innocent, even though you aren’t perfect or even the best.
That moment with my daughter made me think of how I should passionately and intently seek after God, for intimacy with Him and time in His presence, and for opportunities to give Him heartfelt adoration and praise and to show I love Him. After all, He is perfect and the best!
I want to see God. I want to do whatever it takes to have a closer relationship with Him. Just like David, I can say, “My heart says of you, ‘Seek his face!’ Your face, LORD, I will seek” (Psalm 27:8, NIV).
Sometimes all it takes to see God is persistently pursuing His presence. Jeremiah 29:13 says, “You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart” (NIV). Also in Psalm 27, David said, “I remain confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord” (Psalm 27:13-14, NIV).
My daughter kept searching the crowd of parents in the church nursery and ultimately she did see me. I came at the appointed time. She was not abandoned and left alone. All that she had to do was wait and not give up.
Don’t stop searching for God’s face in the midst of your busy life, your family stresses, your ministry concerns, your health crisis, your financial struggles, your job disappointments, your heart-wrenching fears. Keep seeking with all Your heart. You will see God.
But, actively seek. Sometimes we wonder why we aren’t seeing God’s presence in our lives, but we are relegating Him to 10 minutes of our day as we skim through a devotional. Or we think that listening to a sermon and some Christian radio counts as connecting with God. Be willing to give God your time sacrificially. Invite Him into every part of your day and immerse yourself in His Word so that you know Him more fully.
There are other times, though, that finding God takes more than just pursuing His presence. Matthew 5:8 tells us, “Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God” (NIV). Seeking God also means pursuing purity.
Earlier this week, I took a day off from writing. It was partly out of necessity because the day was so hectic with appointments, work, family and ministry. But, it was also because I needed a time out. Someone did something in total innocence that frustrated me. It wounded my ridiculous pride and I reacted with some pouting and whining and, yes, I admit–a private little tantrum.
It was sin and I knew it. I needed some time to get right with God.
As much as I could, I spent the afternoon in God’s Word, letting Him sift my heart, reveal the sin and deal with it. I seem to have these pitfalls, these consistent sins that trip me up, hindering and entangling me (Hebrews 12:1). Do you have some of those—-lessons that you need to learn over and over and over and you wonder if you’ll ever get it right?
Unfortunately, these sins separate me from God and obscure His face.
Fortunately—or more accurately— amazingly, God extends abundant mercy and compassion when we confess our sins to Him and ask Him to make us clean. We are promised that “if we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness” (1 John 1:9, NIV).
That day, I prayed through Psalm 51, which was David’s Psalm of repentance. He had committed adultery with Bathsheba and then had her husband killed to hide the sin after she became pregnant. Adultery. Murder. It seems like a lot for God to forgive, and yet God’s grace is big enough for any sin we lay at His feet. Like David, I prayed, “Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me” (Psalm 51:10, NIV). I want a steadfast spirit, not my roller coaster reactions when I feel hurt or wronged.
Paul wrote, “Since we have these promises, dear friends, let us purify ourselves from everything that contaminates body and spirit, perfecting holiness out of reverence for God” (2 Corinthians 7:1, NIV). Purity of heart isn’t something we stumble on accidentally. It’s not a spiritual gift that God gives to some people and not to others. Instead, it means confessing sin and also actively pursuing purity and “perfecting holiness.” It means asking Him to dig deep in my heart to root out the ugly sins that have such a deep hold on me, even when it hurts, even though it embarrasses me to face up to what’s really lurking in my soul.
It’s worth it– Seeing God’s face and knowing that–not only am I lighting up at finding Him in the crowd, but that He’s grinning at the sight of me washed clean and anticipating His presence. I want a pure heart so that I can see God. I don’t want to miss out on His presence, His peace, or His activity in my life.
Are you willing to do whatever it takes to see God? Right now, that might just be holding on to hope with all your might. Pursue His presence and keep waiting with expectation for God to show up in all His glory. Do not give up. Or, it might mean getting on your knees and asking Him to cleanse your heart and forgive you. Then, with a pure heart, you will see God.
Heather King is a wife, mom, Bible Study teacher, writer for www.myfrienddebbie.com and worship leader. Most importantly, she is a Christ follower with a desire to help others apply the Bible to everyday life with all its mess, noise, and busyness. To read more devotionals by Heather King, click here.
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