I hated missing out on last week’s Weekend Walk and the opportunity to choose a verse to meditate on all week. I hope you blazed ahead without me and chose a verse of your own. If not, I’ll get us back on track today!
Hiding the Word:
At Women of Faith, my friend leaned over and pointed to a verse in her prayer journal that she had underlined. It was perfect as we contemplated the imminent arrival of Hurricane Irene. The day after the storm, I opened my devotional and found the exact same verse. When God repeats Himself, I have learned to listen. So, my verse for this week is simple and sweet:
Surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.
This week, I’m committed to contemplating the ever-constant presence of Christ in my life. I want to be aware of Him rather than distant from Him. I want to rely on Him rather than be independent.
Your Comforts Delight My Soul, Originally Posted 02/21/2011
Last night I had a terrible dream that I was preparing to lead worship—sitting at the piano all ready to go—when I saw my cell phone bill. Obviously, in dreams it makes total sense that I’m checking my mail just before the music starts. Anyway, I looked at that bill and it was $1,717. Then the music started and I couldn’t worship. I couldn’t figure out what words to sing or what notes to play. I was playing a different song than the congregation was singing. It was a disaster.
Obviously, I woke up in a cold sweat from this dream (who wouldn’t be freaked out by a cell phone bill and public disaster like that) and couldn’t get back to sleep for a while. I was anxious and worried about something that only existed in my dreamworld.
Today, as I was doing my devotions, I was reminded of how so much of my worry is about “fantasy situations”—the what if’s I stress over that never actually come true. These anxious thoughts also always affect my worship. It is just not possible to fret and praise at the same time.
In her book, Me, Myself and Lies, Jennifer Rothschild notes that the Old English and Old High German origins of our word “worry” mean “to strangle.” Indeed, worry strangles us, choking out hope, joy, trust and, as it says in her book, “the life-giving truth that should be filling our thought closets” (p.23).
The Psalmist wrote, “Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts, See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting” (Psalm 139:23-24, NIV). I have always loved that verse and I copy it into my journal every time I read it in my devotional time. Yet, it’s not something I find easy to do.
It’s difficult sometimes to hand over our thought lives to God. Even though we know worry harms us and our relationship with God, we don’t want God to search our hearts and test our thoughts. Somehow worrying makes us feel in control and we feel that handing over our anxieties means truly relinquishing any modicum of control we have in our lives.
Thomas Merton said, “Anxiety comes from strain, and strain is caused by too complete a dependence on ourselves.” It’s true that when it’s broken down, worry essentially is a lack of trust or dependence on God. We’re telling Him—“we know that Scripture promises us You will provide, You will comfort, You will bring peace, You will be our Advocate, but I’d rather just depend on my ability to fix my circumstances. Thanks anyway, God”
Chris Tiegreen in Worship The King goes one step even farther than that. He calls our fear “anti-worship.” In his devotional, he writes:
But we who worship God cannot praise him with such insecurities. Our fears are a form of anti-worship–a clear declaration that our God might not have promised us enough, or might not be able to follow through on what He has promised. Yes, He will let us go through hard things, but never outside of His timing or beyond His protection. So worship Him. And don’t worry about it.
Refusing to worry, fret, stress, fear and be anxious doesn’t come to us naturally. It is a discipline of the heart and mind. We must reject anxious thoughts, deny our emotions the opportunity to take over our lives, and fill up with the truth of God’s Word and His promises to us.
In Psalm 94:19 it says, “In the multitude of my anxieties within me, Your comforts delight my soul.” Take delight in His comfort today and consciously choose trust over fear.
In Kathryn Scott’s song, At the Foot of the Cross, she sings, “I lay every burden down at the foot of the cross.” That’s the best place for those burdens to be—not on our back, but at His feet.
Heather King is a wife, mom, Bible Study teacher, writer for www.myfrienddebbie.com and worship leader. Most importantly, she is a Christ follower with a desire to help others apply the Bible to everyday life with all its mess, noise, and busyness. To read more devotionals by Heather King, click here.
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